OMG...Now I See

I haven't blogged for awhile now...after sitting down and carefully reading my very own words I thought how much of me showed in what I wrote. I've always been a very guarded person when it comes to my feelings or my thoughts...no one can say I wear my heart on my shoulder for sure...but then I thought how freeing it is to write and read your own words... I experienced an epiphany...I have tried for years to keep a journal but I couldn't or wouldn't keep it at least for a long period of time anyway... I suddenly realized why ...because I was afraid of sharing my feelings (even on paper) or facing those feelings...Now the question is what was I afraid of or why was I afraid?...Maybe of being judged or maybe by sharing what I thought or feel in some way it meant an invasion of my "personal space"...what's in the head is in the heart....That means if some one reads what I write they know who I really am and after much consideration and trepidation I concluded that is not such a bad thing...(it takes me back to "Say what you mean, mean what you say."...."Those who mind, dont' matter. Those who matter, don't mind"...I love that quote I  believe it was Walt Disney who said that....You know I'm real and I don't say (write) something just for the sake of doing so but it is to make a difference in some one's day day, lift your spirit, make you smile even laugh, give you hope let you know that you are not alone....So now that I've faced that I can move on with this journey that I've started...By the way I am keeping a journal, again...this time I plan to keep it up...At the end of the day or evening it is a good way to unwind and relax....Jan, I'm back at it....(smile)